So last week on Wednesday I had a really bad day. I had a horrible lesson and it really got me down. We were talking about health problems that really worry me. It all got a bit too much, I tried using my techniques but they didn’t help and I had to leave. I was really upset with myself and it’s the first time for ages that I had had to leave. I beat myself up inside. I was really worried about the rest of the day until I realised I had my councillor next. We talked through it and she told me that she was proud of me for leaving. I was a bit confused at first but then she explained that me leaving was a strategy and we had agreed that that was ok. She also said that she knows I don’t take advantage of leaving and it was the best thing for me to do.
After that, I then felt better. I went on with my day and I was ok and then Friday happened. I had that lesson again even though we weren’t talking about that subject the panicking memory was still in my mind. I panicked a lot through the first bit of the lesson and then I started to feel better. I was so glad that even though I panicked I didn’t leave. For me I can tell when I have to leave by gauging my anxiety it has taken me a while but I feel like I can tell now. I was ok during that science lesson, I then had maths which worried me slightly but I did it all.
Then after lunch we had English. I had been dreading this lesson as I knew we had to watch Frankenstein. I would panic watching this at home let alone at school. I didn’t watch any of it I looked away but I could hear it and people told me what was going on. This freaked me out and after sitting panicking for 20 minutes I left. I was disappointed but I knew I wasn’t missing out on anything vital, that I wasn’t avoiding it and the anxiety wasn’t stopping me from doing anything I wanted to do.
I hope that you can take something from this maybe the fact that leaving isn’t a bad thing as long as you don’t avoid it, that everyone has bad days or the fact that I really hate Frankenstein. If you liked it give it a like and if you haven’t already, follow my blog to become a Worry Warrior and I will speak to you guys soon.
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