The low thoughts

EDIT: I have got over this period and looking back I can see how it change so quickly. I think I wrote this mid/late January.

At the time of me writing this I have hit a really low low. I feel like I’m stuck in this rut and nothing is ever going to get better. I can’t see a light at the end of the tunnel. I hate school and am trying to avoid it although it’s obviously the law. I haven’t spoken to my friends at school much and seem to be isolating myself because I know if I talk I’ll cry and then it will all come spilling out and I don’t want to have to cope with that at the moment. People keep telling me that it will get better and ‘it’s just a rough patch’ although I don’t believe them. I never do when I feel like this. I’m now starting to realise that maybe this is just one of my low points but even so I don’t see it getting any better. Why can’t I just lay in bed all day on Netflix? Why do I have to push myself through those horrible double doors everyday? I know that I’ll feel rubbish for the next 6 and a half hours. But yet I have to get on with it. A little voice in my head says only a few more years left at school. Maybe I should try and embrace it. Although it feels like a long time now people tell me it will go by in a flash so maybe I should pick myself up, brush myself down and get on with the day. But then a little voice in my head says, what if something goes wrong? What if all my worries are confirmed? Well we’ll just have to take a deep breath, think positive and believe that I can acheive this. I am stronger that I think.

Thanks for reading, Worry Warriors,

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